Today it is not fertility stuff making me stressed, but work. I have to remember that I cannot be the perfect teacher all the time. My priorities are being kind, fair, calm, and explaining things well, and I cannot also be the perfect grader, communicator or "reminder" at the same time. I do my very best to do what is right 99% of the time. It is true that I make mistakes, and it is true that sometimes I slack. This is not an excuse, but it does happen and I have to allow myself these errors at times.
When errors do occur and parents or students get concerned about grades, etc., I want to remind myself of all the good I really do try to do. And not worry that this error is a sign that I am not good at what I do the other 99% of the time. I can explain my side, be fair and considerate, and move forward. I am not guilty of everything that is wrong in every situation. Sometimes I may be partially to blame, but this doesn't mean I am horrible. It only means I have to remember to try to do better next time. It's a learning experience, a chance to improve at something.
I want to forgive myself for not being perfect at my job. I have forgiven myself for not being the perfect wife or friend--somehow that seems easier to accept. I know that my students deserve a great deal and I try to provide that for them. But I am human and most errors are not worth replaying in my head over and over. I can choose to do something else with that energy. The lesson has been learned. Next time, I will do my best to communicate better.
Breathe, smile, remember--you are very good at what you do.
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